It's the small things.

Go check out any blog! Go, tell me what you find?  I bet when you saw it, you started to compare yourself.  You started to say, "man I wish I got up at 6am and made breakfast for my kids" instead of hitting snooze a bazillion times and now I have to throw the pancake on a stick in the microwave.  Or maybe it's just me that does that.  It seems like a constant battle of "am I a good enough mom" and "do I do enough to make my kids feel loved".  However, yesterday, God showed me that society's view of a great mom, a successful person, or whatever it is that makes you feel lacking is entirely WRONG!  It seems like I spend my time wracking my brain on how I can be more "successful" meaning how can I make MORE money because MORE money would make other people believe that I am successful and happy or what can I create for my kids so that when other people see it they can think that I am an "out of this world" mom.  I have been feeling quite emotional this past week.  Could be a lot of things...Jett turning one soon, nursing is being cut down from three times a day to two to almost one (that plays a toll on my hormones), J'Lee looking like she is 10, and Jax just growing up.  But yesterday, God made the world stand still for the entire day to show me that success is not measured by dollar amount, job title nor crafts made in a day.  Really, I enjoyed my kids and husband more than I have ever had and I didn't have to quit my job to do so.  Don't get me wrong, I would still love to stay at home, but yesterday was a breath of fresh air.  We played at the pond and talked to friends.  We watched J'Lee play some softball.  I had one on one time with Jaxon as we walked back and forth down the street picking up rocks and throwing them to the snakes.  We all made sandwiches in my tiny kitchen and for once it felt like we were in the biggest kitchen ever.  We laughed and made fun of each other.  J'Lee asked for lettuce, tomatoes, pickles, and avocados to be put on her sandwich and then ATE ALL OF IT!  We read the ABC's of the bible and J'Lee gave me her interpretation of each verse and most of the time she hit right on.  Jett let me sing him to sleep which hasn't happened ever. He is a straight to bed kind of guy.  J'Lee asked me to lay with her and Jaxon told me he loved me. We then ended the night with me singing a song.  My heart is full.  We did all of this and I didn't have to do one thing.  All I had to do was ask God to be in our hearts, to walk by our sides as we enjoyed his beauty.  Imagine living everyday like this! I no longer have to imagine...it's real!!! Those small things are my success.